I'm with you, tude. It's almost as if I am not allowed to have feelings and everyone in the world was born knowing that except me.

I have been there, lended my time and concern for so many others who needed someone to talk to or a shoulder to lean on, but when I needed the favor returned, they'd say something really cold and unfeeling, then drop out of my life. It happened again just recently. Someone I would have called a dear friend, someone I have helped emotionally, financially and with hours and hours of time listening to her recite what she was going through, sessions with her counselor, efforts to get a divorce, problems with her family and then when I looked to her for a second head, she cut me off. We were instant messaging and she said she wasn't interested in a pity party, then signed off.

I keep forgetting I was apparently designed to be the whipping girl for everyone. I'm not allowed to have feelings or cry and if I do, am not to be acknowledged.