I also, am afraid that what I tell my T will shock him or make him think I am weird or lying.

I once wanted to get into a clinical trial for PTSD and the interview lasted 6 hours! At then end of it, the fella who interviewed me looked at me and with a terrible facial expression, he said, "Wow, you really have a lot of PTSD!" as if I was toxic waste or something. I felt so dirty and I will never get that look he had out of my memory.

I never want to get that reaction from another human being.