I have the BIGGEST conscience! Sometimes it definitley has worked against me as I would respect other peoples' personal boundaries and well-being more than my own.

I have/had the biggest fear of upsetting people, I guess this is triggered by acceptance, not feeling accepted or that I don't totally accept myself.

I can be much more rational about it these days but I still defnintely have my moments.

I was chatting to someone about this the other day. I treat others, with kindness, compassion and respect as that is how I wish to be treated. I guess the problem here is that I do not bestow those important qualities upon myslef, so when someone does negate to observe these quailites with regards to me. I get so hurt by it!

I dislike how badly people behave towards one another, with little or no regards to the consequences of their actions. I have a close friend who was treated terribly by some mature Uni students. I was the only person in the group to stand up and say NO! I dissociated myself from the people who had behaved so terribly and told them quitely and calmly when they asked me why I was not hanging out with them. I just said 'I choose to dissociate mysllf from you and your behaviour, they pushed for more reasons and I told them that I did not have to justify my actions to them and wished them no malice. Fairness and justice in life is a integral part of who I am! (This was a huge step for me in terms of setting my own boundaries and sticking to them. It was very hard and I did second guess my actions for a while).

If I am having a really bad, bad day, the anger and frustration, I can behave less like this. I do try not to though, I just feel to bad about it!

Spirit x