I agree with She Cat. When I was younger and drank and did drugs I didn't care about anyone but myself unless I was sober.

After 3 years of therapy I stopped the drinking and drugs. I found I had a conscious and it was in over drive because I felt so guilty about what I had done. This guilt had carried over for many years and I'm just now starting to let go of the shame and guilt over what I did.

I have to forgive myself or I will remain sick.