I am 53, single woman. Was involved with an emotional abuser for 12 yrs, but single for the last 12. She had a son that I helped raise, but I have no children of my own. Live where I grew up - in the seattle-Tacoma area. I am employed full time,but am not sure for how long. Tend to have angry outbursts at work related to isolation, belittleing and general chaos. I am a business manager/accountant, so things that don't make sense make me nuts. When it starts happening, I try to get out of the situation, but moving to someplace else allows me to uncork and it is never in private. I lose all control over what I say or do. I don't get violent - except maybe slamming doors. After blowing up, I cry. I weep. I bawl, I want to take it all back and never let it happen again, but I know it will.