Hi jailed,
I'm new here too. I seem to need the TV on when I "zone out" cause that's the only time it happens. (That I'm aware of anyway!) If I'm asked what I watched I couldn't tell you.
It takes courage to come here and post; I realize it's anonymous but that doesn't seem to matter - at least to me. I think anytime we deal honestly with our emotions, regardless of what they are, it's a plus.

Take care,
scm