Feel exactly this way too......I bought eater stuff and still haven't put it out...feeling like a bad mom but i am having a really bad day....all i want to do is sit and be alone. That is my only option right now anyway. At least my son has a friend over until tomorrow and when he leaves i will do the easter egg hunt...a little late but i do have his gifts. My son called my Mom yesterday and said happy eater...she responded with well what do you want from me. he only wanted to wish her a happy easter. I can understand she hates me but he has done nothing wrong!!!!! Holidays are for happy families and people that care. It is just us and we are all alone!!!! All because I have chosen isolation to protect myself and it is turning around to bite me right in the ass. I don't know what to do anymore....i wish i wasn't me.