Hi Nic! I as well have PTSD issues (mostly from sexual trauma) & I already find myself getting queasy replying but, I wanted to share my story because it may help. I was told I wouldn't be able to get (or stay) pregnant after cervical cancer treatments & 2 miscarriages but, my 3rd one took! Although he was a huge surprise (literally/10 lbs.), I am very happy to have my little boy. It took me a while to find a specialist (I'm also a diabetic) who would understand how serious my anxiety reactions are to even simple check-ups. I had to find someone I was comfortable with and that was extremely difficult for me (it probably didn't help that a past gynecologist was one of my sexual offenders). So, make sure you always have a nurse or loved one with you at all times!

During my pregnancy, I was monitored at least 2x a week for the entire time (diabetes, high blood pressure, incompetent cervix, pre-labor, etc.) & I had a lot of anxiety attacks but, I made it through. I hate to scare you but, towards the end, my PTSD kicked into high gear especially when the pain hit & my 2 spinal taps didn't work. When he got stuck & our heart rates reached dangerous levels, I had an emergency c-section. From that point on, I don't remember much (I dissociate & black out under extreme conditions) plus I'm sure they gave me some heavy duty drugs in the ER because the part where they extract the baby, wasn't bad at all. When I got to see him the next day, everything I went through was worth it. And, although I couldn't breastfeed due to meds & anemia we still bonded (I was scared we wouldn't because of my PTSD). So yes, it was extremely scary & traumatic but, if you can find a very understanding & patient doctor, having a baby is technically possible. You just have to decide whether you think you can handle it without further complicating your PTSD like I did. I do however want to end on a positive note & tell you that my son is the reason I get up each day; he's my only light that shines through the dark veil of PTSD. So, I do understand why you want your own child because they bring so much hope & joy into your life. But don't get me wrong, it's not all sunshine & flowers, they also cause a LOT of stress (I just finished potty training!) so, if you think you still want to try or adopt, I wish you the best. Good luck in whatever you decide & take care!