He will not answer his phone or return my email. He must be worse than he was. I thought I saw a spark of him returning to normal....but maybe not. He needs to get more therapy from the VA or at a civilian doctor, but I don't think he wants to yet. He said he was a wall up that no one will penetrate...not even his kids. I can understand blocking out me...his girlfriend. We have no blood ties...just love. But his kids....what does that mean? How can you not allow your kids to get close to you. Don't you think that will hurt them forever? It is killing me and I know what is going on. I wish I could just push a magic button and he would be okay again. I don't expect perfect...I never did. Perfect would be too hard for me to live up to ~ I just want him to be himself.

Does he not see how he is affecting everyone who loves him? We all just want him to let us love him. He will not allow it....says he is not worthy. How can I convince him he is worthy? Because he is.
sisu