I have had the same issues with doctors and any exam for many years and I have 3 children. I still only go to the doctor if I absolutely have to. I'm always in trouble for skipping annual exams.

Anyway, the key is finding a doctor you can trust and who understands. The doctor of my first child (13 years ago) was very kind. He did not know my story and did not act, but he knew there were issues and he was very kind. He explained everything he was going to do before he even touched me. When I started trembling and shaking he said "Is that me shaking or is that you?"

Anyway, he made the exams tolerable and then when it was time for delivery, trust me there is nothing on your mind other than getting the baby out.

Of course, the ideal situation would be for you to find a loving mate to help you through the pregnancy and delivery. That makes all the difference in the world.

lgnore the biological clock. Live one day at a time. My friend just adopted 2 beautiful children. One is 3 and one is 4; they are so lucky because she so desparately wanted children, they are well loved.