What I mean here, and I'm not sure if that is clear, what I mean is;
think about the qualities in him that you love. BB told me the other day that he still does not know why I help him, but he is finally glad that I am. He feels at the basic stage of progression. To which I replied and explained why I help him. Because I love him ( they don't catch on real quick) and I proceed to explain why and how he affects me for the better. It was the best thing I could have done. He replied the next day that he's been reading my text over and over and it is making his mentality soar as well as his heart.
But I do this knowing that this is a tough road and I know I need to protect myself, that is why I have stuck with expressing myself on this forum, I need to keep my feelings in check and learn from others -- particularly sufferers -- just as the sufferers yearn to learn from us to understand their own relationships. This forum is my out let. We all need an out let to work out our feelings and spare ourselves from getting overloaded as much as possible.

But after you have sent that email -- that's it, leave him be, so you can leave yourself be. The hardest part of this whole PTSD thing is accepting that you can't fix it, that you can't change it, that that is up to them.

The second hardest thing is accepting that healing and getting anywhere with it is the longest road in the world, but it is the one with the most scenery, passion and growth, if you stick with being true to yourself and putting yourself first.

I don't think you need to be with him right now, it will be to your detriment, and that is not fair. If it is meant to be, it will be, that I have learnt and must continue to remind myself. Because love my dear, unfortunately is not enough, it takes more than love for a healthy relationship of any sort to be nurtured and be healthy and productive -- for all involved.