I used to pride myself on the fact that I could hold it together so well...I think my emotions were somewhat shut off. Although as a kid my mother would scream "STOP CRYING" My father had just died and I was raped by a stranger.....damn who wouldn't cry at 15. Today I cry when i see my son hurting or having a hard time due to his aspergers and tourettes.....today i cried because i feel so alone, abandoned and hurt by people in my life.