I'll try to summarize and get to the question. I'm at the doorstep of a nervous break down; a long-time friend that is interested in more than friendship for quite sometime; I allow into my life; I want to say that on many occassion he was between me and the edge of a cliff; he holds me when I need to be held; tells me everything is going to be ok; he brings me back to the here and now when I'm headed for another "moment" because something or someone has triggered it. I'm thankful that he's been there for me and nothing scares me more. I think I've become too dependent on him as far as me working on dealing with my triggers, emotions, etc. I feel afraid when he's not around; I'm scared that I can't deal with things on my own. And the BIG WHAT IF he leaves and all that goes with that as well as the fact that I've relied on him so much to get me through. I feel as if I've put my life in his hands. I couldn't begin to define what is healthy in a relationship. Soooo; has anyone else done the same and if so what has happened as the result; or if you advise that this isn't a healthy thing to keep doing how should I change it?