Denial is the longest river .... He can try to keep denying it but it won't work forever. As I said before the hardest step is accepting. I have accepted it many times and then flew back to the other side. Go through the painful process of accepting it again. I don't know why I do this. I think because living with the 'monster' controlling you is too difficult to accept it will always be a struggle of will.
The thing is realizing that it is not controlling you and you can manage it mostly. The times or frequency that I feel out of control is a lot less and when it does happen now I am much quicker at recognizing what I have to do to take the reigns back.
It takes a lot of pain to get where I am and it is not easy to acknowledge that is what you have to do. It's like having corrective surgery. Do you want the pain, no, but will the outcome of the process better your life, yes. What do you choose? |