Thank you all...........Yes, I've read and reread the Dali Lama's book on the stages of death, the things I'm likel to encounter. I think I've done enough meditation to go through the fires of Mara.My T called last night. I said, "you know, in 43 years, I've never even had a true friend." I feel like, even though virtual, I can say I've found that online. Thank you all.............I think I'll be signing off now. I'm very much at peace, no fear, just really happy I"ll finally be where I've always wanted to be. I've never felt so wonderful in my life really.I wish you all to continue this journey here and my hope is you find more here than I've been able to. Spirit, I will miss you and I do feel your presence, I feel all of yours.I think the next few months I'll just spend in meditation. Working on forgiveness..........I do not want to meet God with any unforgiveness in my heart. This is good, very good.