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Originally Posted by spiritofnow  I think I can relate to that 2nd post?
It's the mask of a PTSD sufferer, well it was for me. Never being truhtful with myslef meant that I would not be with others' either. I thought I had to present myself to the world in a certain way in order to feel accepted.
It's scary sometimes to admit that you are vulnerable, not coping, not as you feel you should be in this world be that physically and or mentally.
Spirit x |
Well explained - I can't shake the same feeling, I am not coping. Its scarey as hell. I lie because I cannot be me, I have to be someone else - who I think I
should seem to be if I am to be allowed to live. It sounds illogical when I write it down, but I feel as though utter strangers have the right to take away my life, and I would have no right to protest. Lying sometimes feels safer. And means that no-one can see the vulnerability I feel.