Maybe this sounds really weird, but even when I feel like crying, nothing comes out. Sometimes tears will come out but I'll never be flat out crying or sobbing because no noise can come out. It's trapped in my throat. I think maybe it comes from having to hold back my tears for so many years while being abused. I remember crying in my bedroom growing up but intentionally forcing myself to stay quiet and not make any noise because I didn't want them to hear me. Now as an adult, there have been many times when I have wanted to cry but couldn't do it because it would get stuck inside me.