Pandora, I am glad to see you taking a postive attitude. It does help. I, too, liked the life as a book. I am guilty of not only peeking at the ending, but trying to re-write it to my satisfaction.
Positive attitude and thoughts have never been enough for me. Something that I hold myself to is, "Actions speak louder than words." Am I walking the walk in addition to talking the talk? Are my actions and behaviors congruent with my thoughts and beliefs? I don't expect perfection for myself, but am I making progress?
Keep up the good work

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tude