I find that I often leave feeling dissociated and 'on the moon.' Sometimes I leave feeling good, then usually that crashed within a day as I realise something new from what came up in therapy.

I think maybe it depends on the person. It seems to be if you have problems with dissociation (like me) pushing too hard would mean you never get anywhere because I'd just constantly be dissociating. So it's a question of finding the right level of difficulty - hard enough that I'm getting somewhere, not so hard that I can't cope and (mentally) leave.

That said, I don't really feel like I know what I'm talking about. I'm incredibly scared. Ridiculously scared. Scared that I'll be dropped by the therapist before I'm better, scared that I won't get better. Scared that I'll have to give up on my dreams because of this.