Thank you all.

When I say "over-load" I was more referring to the feeling of being over-loaded. There's been too much anger lately, and I simply could not make that transition again at that moment. Does that make sense?

So, feeling that way, my reaction was to simply want to be alone and read - I just couldn't shrug it off and roll with another swift change. I took some time to be alone this weekend, to work on a project, and to find my center again. There is nothing like working in the rain, repairing a fence, to connect you with the here and now. The horses were entertained by my efforts also. :)

I don't blame myself. His PTSD isn't my fault, nor due to anything I did. All I can do is to try to support him as best I can. Sometimes my best is better than other times, though! LOL! I'm no Mother Theresa, and sometimes I have moments of just wanting to throw up my hands and go read a book or go for a ride or take a really long hike with a dog. Other times, I deal with it all much better.

Normally, I leave when he's angry, if possible. It just works better for us. But normally, when he feels better, I'm ready. Sometimes, though, like this time, I just had reached a threshold level that required some alone time on my part.

Thanks for letting me vent.

Cowgirl