Hi All,

I just found this thread. Tomorrow is a really bad anniversary of my trauma. I'm already starting to feel sick. I took off of work today, so I need to go in tomorrow. It might actually help to take my mind off it...I don't know. It will be ten years tomorrow since the last time I was raped. It was also on that day that I finally told someone, came out of the denial and all. While that might sound like a good thing, it was also when EVERYTHING came crashing down and I was left totally unable to deal.

I don't think it would be too bad, except that it's April Fool's Day, so that is a constant reminder of what day it is. I can't just pretend it is a random day or anything.

Ten years...I can't believe it's been ten years. I remember it like it was yesterday. I can remember every event of the day: everything that was said, done, what I was wearing...EVERYTHING. Ugh...the memories are coming on strong now. I don't know how I'm going to get through work tomorrow. G-d this really sucks.