Sometimes for me, when I am experiencing the fear and Wishmaster is upset by it, I hear it in his voice and it unfortunately can make the fear worse... and that adds frustration because I know that I am hurting him. At first he didn't quite understand the meaning of "Please back away from me because I'm afraid I'll hit you!" He saw me scared and his first instinct was to hold me, so "Ahhh!!! Ahhh!!! get away from me!" sounded more like an attack to him. I was just trying to protect myself... and that rational part still left in the back of my brain tries to protect him.

In town shopping is probably one of the hardest places for us... there lie the most triggers and the most shattered expectations (shopping is supposed to be fun!).

When I push the buttons, its not even really Wishmaster I see... him, or anything else, just becomes a room full of targets and anything that moves is gonna get it. I compare the feeling to a hurt animal stuck in a trap that just lashes out at everything, including the one trying to help it. All the while something is screaming in the back of my head that I don't mean any of it.

But we all keep working at it!