OMG, yes, yes, yes.

My outlook on life has taken such a dramatic and sudden change, my head is still spinning. Life and my life used to make sense. It had meaning and purpose. I used to believe in God. I didn't look around and see people living shallow, transparent lives. I didn't think I was taking my life for granted. Seeing the idiots at work, I never have uttered the words, "Is there any hope for humanity?" I have thought to myself, why bother trying because one of those idiots can take it all away.

In addition to getting out of myself, I can tell you this is why I started volunteering. It felt good to be a part of something constructive instead of something destructive. It was meaningful to see strangers working together, freely giving their time, sweat, and blood for the sake of another. It was meaningful to see the homeowners taking responsibilty for their lives and being a part of the working process. At Habitat for Humanity, my faith in humanity was being restored. Unfortunately, my lack of faith in myself put an end to this. Through a bout of depression, I felt like a fraud being there. That has since passed and I plan on returning to it this spring.

Upstream, I guess it will take time for my head to stop spinning to see clearly again as I once used to. In the meantime, we keep looking for the good in humanity and participating in it. I think you're on the right path to restoring your faith.

I believe hoplessness is one of the worst human conditions. I also believe life is constantly changing. We are all constantly changing. This gives me hope for all of us.

If you find other ways to help restore what has been lost, please share.

tude