Upstream,

YES!! And, this has contributed greatly to my agoraphobia - I just think people are down right mean. I always joke around and say that I was born in the wrong generation, that I should have been born in my parents generation and I would have been part of the "movement", I would have been a hippie. Unfortunately, a lot of hippies turned into yuppies and I question how they went from being so free loving to just loving capitalism. I digress....

I cry whenever I see how the AIDS epidemic has ravished Africa, their horrible civil wars. I cried the other day when I watched "Autism, the musical" about a group of beautiful individuals who coordinated a musical made up of Autistic children to give them hope, to show the world that these kids are capable. There's bad and then there's good and I struggle trying to reconcile the two.

I also heard about a group of 3rd graders who plotted to kill their teacher in GA- they actually brought in the materials to do so. THIS makes me want to freakin crawl into a hole and never come out. HOW did this happen????? When did we start the reversal of our own evolution???

Maybe if I believed in a higher power I would be able to handle these issues better, because then I would believe that there is something greater than this. But, I don't. It makes it hard and it also creates hopelessness.

I truly wish I had an answer. Lately, I surround myself with animals, they ground me.