Hi Tessan

I'm sorry that you are feeling so alone.

I understand what you are going through. I have lost friends due to my PTSD. One reason is that I push people away, which is probably due to not wanting to be hurt. Also, sometimes, when I have tried to open up to someone, they have occaisionally run away. This makes it harder to open up in the future.

As Cecilia says - true friends will stick around, and those that don't aren't worth knowing.

I'm sure you'll find plenty of people here who understand all that you are going through. I hope new friends come to you in time. You sometimes just have to take that chance to let someone in to your life.

Good luck