Gawd, so many things here spoke to me it's hard to respond because I get so overwhelmed. Let's see, Wendy you definitely hit the nail on the head, Awakening too for that matter. I have always felt the need to be recognized. I have always felt invisible. When I first started burning and cutting myself it was because I wanted people to know I was in a tremendous amount of pain. Later, when I saw peoples reaction to it, it became more of a private issue. I didn't like the way people were responding but, I just wasn't ready to quit.

Now I have the desire to relate and be related to and that has caused me to reach out more... especially on this forum. In the last month/month in ahalf I have acquired 13 friends on this forum. This is such a big deal to me because I waited four months and watched how people posted and what they had to say before I invited them to my friends list. Some of them invited me but my answers to them were based on the same evaluation as the others. What kind of people did they appear to be... All seemed to have one thing in common... They cared. They had their own struggles but, they cared. That is empathy at it's best. I don't need no one to feel sorry for me. I just need you to give a shit.

Pandora, thank you in particular for encouraging me in my diary. It is initially why I took such an interest in you. I consider you a friend. Everything will work out for you, I just know it will.

Take care all, Morgan