BSBD please do not start self harm. It is an OCBD and it goes along with eating disorders. I found that it was nearly impossible to get over the eating disorder so I think once you start self harm it will linger for a very long time.

I was addicted to Demerol after a month long stay in the hospital where I was given shots of Demerol every 4-6 hours. It took years to get over that.

I still struggle with the eating disorder. Some times I over eat and some times I won't eat at all, which is a way to punish myself and prove I can control what happens to my body.

These things take time to resolve. Keep working on your healing, and in my opinion don't substitute self harm for drug use. Because you will be doing both instead of just one. Self harm will substitute for drug use and vice versa when in need for that release.

Peace
Tammy