Dear Purdy:

I only have loved ones now, because I worked for it. Let me explain:

When I was a young teen (age 12) I lived on the streets, until I was 16. The only contact I had with family was in big fights involving the police or CAS. I went YEARS with no one around. I spend x-mas, new years, birthdays, every freaking day without love, compassion or freindship. When I was in my 20's I decided that I was sick of being alone. I have worked my a** off building up relationships with family and freinds. It's not perfect. I have few freinds to this day and only get along with two family members (one who just came into the picture 7 years ago.)

Having a loving and suppportive relationship takes time and effort. I had to decide, for myself, if I was willing to put the effort into healing severly damaged relationships and buliding new ones, or not.

The only person who can help you is you. We can all support you, but we can not force family to support or love you. You have the ability to bring loving and caring people into your life. It can be done. However, this is your choice. If you are willing to work on this and put effort into it, then we can support you and help in whatever way we can.

You can come out of the other side of this. I did. It's possible.

This post is meant to show you that there is hope, if you want it. I hope this helps some.

Bec