I don't have time this morning to respond to all of these, but I will do so over the next couple days. I just didn't want you to be concerned that I was going to actually start self harming again.

I was a pretty heavy duty self harmer up until 2003, when I was able to stop and haven't done it but once since then. I've had periods of sobriety before and never experienced a pull like that to cut again, until this time. I think that's why it surprised me so much.

I still can't get the hospital that's doing my outpatient addiction treatment to set up an actual appointment with a therapist. However, they were willing to schedule an appointment with the psychiatrist for in a week to see if I need to be on meds. *laffs* The thing is, normally, I'm vehemently opposed to psych meds.

Gotta run, but thank you for the concern (that goes for what everyone has had to say).

Blue Skies