Did not call my mother on Easter Sunday, nor have allowed myself to do so since. She's been on my mind lately and I have a dilemma. Both:

It feels like a bad idea for me to call her at this time in our lives, and yet I fear it's an even worse idea not to do so.

And,

It's a bad idea not to call my mother, and yet an even worse idea to do so, at this time in our lives.

Basically, I'm afraid of what might be, and my feared, almost predictable, spiritual downward slide that could follow, as well as, a possible MH internal eruption response to speaking with her, having her over here to visit, or visiting her.

My family and I are in the process of many positive changes and the stress that can arise from such huge changes is already enough for me to need to manage.

So despite my justifications in not calling her or talking with her lately, I still feel guilty.