Oh, yes, I have the very same internal talk about someone rescuing me, and I do this on a daily basis. In my mind, I am injured and traumatized, and a character from an old TV show (I am in the show) rescues me and loves me and kind to me. I have done this since I was about 8 years old.
The difference with me is that I told neighbors' mothers and teachers that i was being molested and they did nothing. The police came to my house several times and did nothing because my parents quickly cleaned up the fight area and themselves before the police got there, and back then, the police did not get involved in domestic fights. Nobody ever attempted to rescue me, and I am angry about that because they should have helped me, but did nothing. In my mind, these adults are partially responsible for my abuse because they knew it was happening and did nothing to stop it.
I also went into teaching, but I taught adults because the thought of teaching and possibly rescuing a child from the same trauma I went through makes me freeze up. I stay away from children now because they are so vulnerable and they make me nervous. I cry uncontrollably if i think a child is being maltreated. I can't stand it.
I have called the police on people who were whipping children in parking lots, and I have had arguments with women in the bathroom for calling their kid stupid. Once I threatened to hit a woman if she hit her child one more time, she was going to get a beating from me that she would never forget. We screamed about how ironic it is that if adults hit each other, there will be assault charges, but she thought she could beat her child with no consequences.
To answer your second question as to whether this dreaming of a rescuer is healthy or not, I don't know, but I probably won't stop doing it. |