Auburngirl - exposure has helped in some areas and not so much in others. Some areas just can't seem to be helped no matter what. I am trying to accept that and not beat myself up so much about it.

Cecilia - not crazy at all in my opinion. I count as well...count all the time whether disassociated or not - all connected to trauma. Unfortunately it doesn't usually help me stay grounded and I don't often realize I am doing it. So if it is crazy, at least we aren't alone. lol