I'm non-miliatery, so I can't say that I know what you are going through.

However I have had PTSD for several years, and it is a living hell. And it is something that I wouldn't wish on anyone.

You seem to have identified a problem here. I would advise you to seek help ASAP, in the hope that by getting help early on, it will have a smaller impact on your life. Don't let this horrible condition take over your life. The fact that you are here shows you are concerned - do something about it now, before it gets out of control. Hind sight is a wonderful thing to help others. I have wasted too many years in denial, making everything so much harder. Don't make the same mistake.

Take care