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The principal causes of mindlessness are systematic lies and discounts which are characteristic of oppressive environments. We are all familiar with lies; a discount occurs when someone denies the validity of our experiences often by way of a lie. Systematic discounts and lies when we are alone, afraid, hungry or sick—in short, powerless--can combine to interfere with our thinking functions and can, if severe enough, lead to total mental breakdown.
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this is the point.
you have to be strong.
think that mi parents (my jailers) use to tell around that i am crazy and they put in my old room the packets of my mother's psycho drugs, so they can prove people what they're saying; they tell that i am a prostitute, a drug addict and that i sell drugs..
whan i was a girl, they used to tell around that i was very fragile, they used to invent stories about me and to tell them to my teachers, for example, so that my taechers would not belive me if i would have told them what was happening at home...
they act like good persons, they know latin, they are acculturated persons... they help many people..
and they continue to say to me that i am inventing everything, to make me feel crazy, to confund me..
but i am a very logic and rational person, and this is what saved me from crazyness.. but not from a mental collapse. unfortunatly.
about the other people....this is very strange. i can't belive people is so insensitive!
the worst that appened to me was that my man or my friends used to say to me " go beyond that, don't think about the past..", but said with love, and when they had been able to understand better the situation, they haven't said it any more.
go away from all the insensitive ang egoist people!
look for warm, sensitive and joyful people, and enjoy the life the more you can!
i agree with becvan (again
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I think my hardest struggle with all this was realizing the only validation of the abuse that I would ever get is from myself.. and my therapist. After being blamed for years and years.. it's hard to shut that voice off and validate oneself...
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the life is yours, don't let them steal it from you more than than they have already done!!
go, upstream, go!
kisses...