I have been here on the forum for 14 months, but, I feel I need a fresh start.

I am Grama-Herc and was doing very well here in slowly getting myself together when something went wrong, very wrong.

I wish I knew what triggered my complete failure as a member of this forum. My intention was never to cause hurt or harm. Yet, something sent me into a form of vengeful spite.

I have Ptsd, panic/anxiety, severe depression and agoraphobia. I was diagnosed in 1997 and was hospitalized for 2 months. I continued CBT with a private theapist for 2 years until I lost my insurance and I've been on my own ever since.

I am basically a good person with a difficult problem. I manage it most of the time like the rest of you, but somethings things get out of hand.

My name is Grama-Herc and I screwed up.