Welcome David! You will find a lot of people who understand and help you here.

I too had it a long time until I just went over the edge when panic disorder kicked in full gear and that aspect was pretty much uncontrolled for a good year no matter how many pills they poked down my throat. After that I was sent to different doctors who then diagnosed PTSD. It is very slowly getting better for me now, though sometimes it gets the best of me. I can relate to watching the news, I am just getting where I can watch it on occasion. I try to figure out why can't they broadcast something nice and noble done in the community instead of death and horror.