I feel so miserable, I am here crying and typing this shit. My poor boyfriend, who is always at the mercy of my irrational abuse. Sometime, not even I know why am I so angry, so easily. I feel really helpless and overwhelmingly cruel. Somedays I feel like I worthless, and I shouldn't be around wasting people's time. I will never be good enough for university, despite you telling me I am...

I just want you, my love, to save me from myself. I am scared and I TRY so hard to tell you, help me! help me! But you don't seem to care... or probably just can't understand. So all I want from you is a sincere hug till the pain pass. But even that's hard because you tell me you can't sit still and just hug me. I'm so scared... I don't want to go mad.

Sorry for the incoherence.