Thank you for starting this forum Anthony.

I tried therapy and I was not ready for the things that the therapist wanted me to face. He was dead on right about what I was in denial about, but I just wasn't ready. I wanted to blame it all on the one trauma instead of visiting the others.

I have been reading this forum with avid interest. I am moving away to graduate school in a few months. I have to work and get ready for the move, etc. I just do not have the emotional wherewithall to invest in developing a therapeutic relationship at this point. I considered doing that when I move because they have free counseling at the university. I think this forum will be extraordinarily helpful to me with the information at hand. I am understanding more about what I can expect as I move toward healing.

These days when I find myself feeling anxious, really anxious, and thoughts course through my head.... I examine those thoughts instead of attempting to avoid them. I usually end up crying my eyes out, feeling depressed and sad. Here is the thing, at least I do not feel anxious anymore once I cry it out. So I cry and I feel better, at least I feel relaxed.