Hi howdoifixit,

one thing I have had to keep reminding myself of in the short time I have been 'here' at the forum, is the importance of not comparing my experiences of trauma and its results to those of others. When I read what you wrote I know that your pain is real and vivid and worthy of compassion and in need of healing, just like everyone else's.
I am saddened to read what happened to your daughter, to you. Pale words, but the best I can offer. I hope you find the support and kindness you need, here and wherever else you seek it.
Welcome.