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Old 11-04-2008, 03:24 AM
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Nicolette, Thank you so much for starting this thread and for its reminder, and for re-directing my attention to it's Importance.

I am guilty of not letting both many others, as well as, some friends and family know that I thinking well of and missing them;

And/or that I am so frequently thinking of them and care lots and lots about them and their well-being.

I state this of course, with my reasons at hand, and though logically they do often appear quite valid to me, my reasons simply are not acceptable to me, regardless of there validity or lack there of; I'm yet to distinguish where I can be doing better for real, and where things and/or life simply fall beyond my control; Still yet to be determined.

I have found not doing this well, and to my expectations of myself, so very difficult, frustrating, and all-around hurtful. I say, difficult not for a lack of regard for another, or in instances love, for another human being; Rather difficult as in halted or distinguished by too many a fear, insufficient time, an abundance of other obstacles, likely confused priorities and seemingly all working in collusion; Again, something I'm yet to determine.....which is which and what is what.

Nicolette, however, now that you have written here, you have helped me to a very important state of consciousness, in doing so. ......This is the second time this week, the other similar help came from a limo driver. Truly, thank you for this thread, Nicolette!

Making a big promise to myself now, ......I will better attempt to reach and communicate with those whom I am thinking of, miss, respect, and/or always will highly regard and wish well and of course to those whom I love. ......Within the forum and here back home.

As I've said, this has been my second awareness and consciousness of the importance of such, this week. The other day while riding home from my eye-research appt., the limo driver and I talked. He ended up sharing some very real and personal experience with me. It's not my place here to say what, but as the tears formed some in my eyes, he gently stated, "Now, when you go home, give your husband a great big hug and tell him how you feel about him."

Om, I'm crying right now, remembering how I felt that man's pain the other day, how he reached and touched me with his story, and how his sharing and resulting response to me was one that can only, both always further develop and also bring to the light great love.

Anyhow, ..........Here's some of what I've been holding onto, in regards to forum members, and have not either said or haven't said in far to long of a time:

ranger2 75 and CaptainR, I want you both to know now how much I miss both of you, and your heart and your prescence here on the forum. I have thought well of each of you many times and highly regard, respect and always will be wanting, wishing and praying the very best for you and your families.

nov silence, though we did not get to know each other as well as we might have, what I have recalled in me thinking of you is integrity and a real spiritual prescence. In our interactions and in reading your personal writings, I've felt and had come to experience you as one wonderful, deeply spirited woman. I miss you, and will always remember you and will be wishing you well.

There are a couple others here either presently active within or have been visiting the forum, and a few other people, whom though not around, still I think of and miss and often. Those people, may find themselves embarassed if I said anything here now, and where as there is another way to communicate to them I will.

Nicolette, please accept a great big cyber-hug and thank you, from me to you.

.............now this feels next to impossible to really post, because of my vulnerable emotions that I now feel. (Reminding myself to take a deep breath...., breath...., breath...., and now a shower, as I've been working in the garden and then food, which so often is far too easily forgotten.)


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