Well I have absolute no idea what I'm doing. I feel as though basically my therapist keeps my head above water. Most of the time I'm so overwhelmed and she reduces that so I can continue to function, albeit at a reduced ability.

Mainly we have concentrated on reducing my overwhelming feelings and introduced coping mechanisms.

One of my traumas I have written out completely, yet since then we've said maybe half a dozen sentences about it (and that was about 2, 3 months ago).

I've also talked a little about my suspected trauma as a child, but very limited.

We've discussed my symptoms; nightmares, flashbacks, anxiety attacks a lot.

I came to her originally because of drama in my family, and to immediately reduce that stress which was ongoing for quite some time. The PTSD stuff came about in dribs & drabs over the course of addressing this original problem. Then the original problem (the family drama) would flare up we'd address that, then go back to PTS related stuff.

Since then I've still had some ongoing stresses namely my relationship & my job.

Gosh. I'm just so confused right now.

I also dissassociate alot in therapy when talking about trauma, so then there is a lot of time grounding.

I'm thinking maybe I've been too busy concentrating on current stresses to actually attack the past stuff. Just treading water basically.