Okay, I am going to be blunt here. I'm not trying to hurt your feelings.. but I think you need to think about this.. and maybe look at a few things... So. this is your fair warning...

What I read is just a pile of excuses. How long have you been in therapy for? What have you accomplished in that time? Have you made any changes in your trauma or symptoms?

If all of us went to therapy and just concentrated on reducing overwhelming feelings and coping mechanisms, not a single one of us would be one step ahead of the day we came here. Your chasing your tail.

Why are you avoiding a therapy where you know what is going on, what the goal is, and how long you expect to be doing it for? What benefit are you getting from avoiding this type of therapy? Is treading water good enough for you?

Really Awakening, wake up. Your worth so much more than this. You deserve better than this.

I do not in any way expect actual answers to these, I do hope that you will think about all these questions and maybe find your path from the answers.

Meant in the best of ways,
bec