Hi Awekening, the fear of almost being raped is scary so I wouldn't dismiss that. I feel that some one molested me too and I called two aunts and they both verified that they heard I was molested by an uncle. I also asked a different uncle if he heard anything and he said he didn't.

I was worried having to call these two aunts up and ask them such a difficult question but I needed answers. I still don't know if it's true because it's all hearsay. But I pretty much let it go and figure it will reveal itself when it's ready to, if ever.

I think therapy is good to vent and get things off of your mind. But actually depending on a therapist might seem like co-dependency IMO.

My therapist wants to see me weekly because he thinks I was improving and then hearing about the possible molestation made him nervous, and he is worried if I don't stay in therapy I will revert because I told him I don't stay in therapy for very long periods of time.

I only had one therapist I've connected to in 25 years of trying, and I only saw her for 3 years and I felt better and stopped going (that was over 10 years ago) I only just started therapy 7 months ago after a nervous breakdown.

I don't think I need therapy every week, but that's what he wants. I told him I can't afford it so they are working with me so I can afford it. But that doesn't mean I will go every week because he wants me too. He will need to give me a better reason why I need to go every week, when I see him next time.

Some people are able to deal with their problems on their own easier than others. I don't know for sure what advice I can give to you about therapy but share my own experiences.

Take care
Tammy