Hello - I have PTSD resulting from an auto accident almost 4.5 years ago resulting in the drowning death of my 10 month old twin babies and my own near drowning. Just today somebody suggested that there might be a place online where I could talk to somebody else who might understand even some small part of what my life has become - and I thought it was worth a shot. I found this site. Just after my accident I had found a grief site but did not find that helpful at the time.

I see a counselor once a week for this but have gotten progressively worse. Just writing about this I am feeling quite nauseous. There are so many facets to this - I'm sure for each of us - but too many to put down here without writing a book. I am not on any medication currently since while they had some positive effects their were also some negative - which was the reason I had to stop taking them. I couldn't cry while on meds and felt like I would explode from not being able to express myself. My sleep is and has been horrible from the beginning, issues from just poor sleep to nightmares and waking flashbacks. I don't function very well at all on a daily basis and have great issues with traveling anywhere - taking days to recover from drives that are longer than the usual trip to the store or unusually stressful. I also lost my job as a result of this which has greatly impacted my ability to pay bills etc. I used to be smart (computer analyst) but am feeling pretty stupid these days.

Is there anything anyone can recommend to help with any of the issues PTSDs have? (I have them all) I prefer natural remedies but am open to medical and some other options with a few exceptions.

Thanks much