I actually came to this conclusion in the last week. I realized i need to stop isolating myself ( I have the company of 12 year olds all the time) and I was using the forum to get me through but I NEEDED more than this in my life. Reaching out is hard. I need more people...I just need to make better choices in choosing them. In not having people...it is hard to be alone especially when another crisis arises and I have leaned that life is all about learning and how you frame your thoughts and choose your actions. I am not there yet....and that is my next big life choice.....getting back to life and accepting the cards i have been dealt with. I will continue to use the forum but really......I have had so many changes in my life my healing has halted and I just need things to calm down for a while first.