cielito,
it's important, no, it's very important that you find a way to be "in the world" the more you can. it's also for this reason that i told you to attend some course: building something inside you while you are between people, even if they don't know about your suffering and about what appened to you, helps you to have more "sense of the reality". more, it's important that you create some relations, even if they are not relations of real friendship.
sense of reality is the most important thing in mental health, don't forget it.
and your mind need human contact, too.
don't desperate and look for joy...
kisses