There is nothing to compare to losing a child. I am new here and see that you posted on the anniversary of one year. I too have lost my children and know the pain and suffering that goes with it. Stick together and don't forget to tell your spouse what you need from him/her. After 4.5 years my husband and I are still trying to remember to think and tell each other what we need from one another - a difficult thing when you can't really think well. Keep Brian alive in your hearts and lives. God be with you all. Please accept my sincere sympathy and prayer for your peace through this.