Spirit,
I hope that I am not over-stepping here in the ptsd chat area, but I am just curious...

Could Ant have said or done anything to make you more trusting of his love for you? Or could he have done anything to make you feel you were worthy of his love?

I am glad that you are realizing that you are special and worthy of love ~ because you are! Yay spirit for realizing that!

Sisu