I have had a major breakthrough today in therapy and I wanted to share and explore this feeling.

Today was not about re-visiting the past, today was about brining me into the here and now. My T kept referring to the date, 'you are here with me now, connected, in April 2008', then she would say 'you are with me in the room'.

She is aware that I am quite intuitive and I started to frown a little. She asked me if I was Okay? 'Hmmm, I feel a bit surreal as if I have just arrived'? Yes she said, you will here me use this quite a lot! She explained that many of us don't connect with our present surroundings, with the 'here and now'. She explained that she could see from our sessions etc., that I especially did not.

Bloody hell - it seems so obvious, but I just do not! I am always living in my head, experiencing the world from the past and thinking about the future , but never in the 'here and now'!

We practised a relaxation technique to trigger this here and now feeling.....She explained that she wanted me to go home and really look at my boy's face, look at my home and all that I have in it, and think about what I have achieved to have in it to the present date. She told me to taste my food, smell the air, look at the sky, watch and hear the birds.

It felt weird to begin with as though I had just arrived behind my eyes. I am in love with this feeling now! I am here and I can see everything around me, wow!

Oh my! Where have I been all these years - I have not been here, not connected to me and what is around me.

It makes perfect sense!

So can and do you live in the here and now?
What is it like for you when and if you do this?
Do you believe you have been living in an alternate universre - Traumasville?
Do you think it is an amazing feeling to achieve, connecting with yourself and your surroundings?
Do you think this is what recovery is all about?