im almost 100 percent positive that i have ptsd. i have so many of the symptoms, and it seems lately they are getting worse. ive done some researching and am still learning on it, like what i need to do and what all is involved in ptsd.

i woke up this morning thinking today im going to find someone that can help me. someone other than just information in books and stuff like that. because to me that can only do so much. but when i got to reading on the therapist and all the stuff they want you to tell them, on your first visit, things of why you feel you have it. it makes me just want to cry and i get so scared to go.

i cannot imagine myself talking to one, i always think "what if'. ya know, what if they think im just making things up or what if they dont get me at all, and they plan all of this other stuff. i did that once i went to the family doctor and told him i have suspect that i might have ptsd, and he asked why and i didnt tell him everything. just the latest thing that had really effected me, and he put me on depression meds. but they didnt work, nothing really changed, well maybe my low times, but the nausea was much worse to deal with at that time. and it made the insomia alot worse. so i told him about it and he put me on some sleeping pills, but they made the depression alot worse. so i dropped both of them, because i knew it wasnt going to help and i really felt like a science experiment more than anything. so ive been pretty much battleing it for awhile now, and ive gotting a little better with the things i can control. ive learned to try and not be so snappy and if i do then try and correct myself right afterwards, so i dont get the guilt of doing it for no reason. n e way i could go on and on

i came here because i have just gotting tired lately of trying to do it all by myself, and i here people talk about ways to cope and they sound like it really helps. but what did you have to do to get over the anxiety of making that first step, b/c i cant just jump..........